Friday, October 27, 2006

UPDATE


Well, had it out again at about 4:oo a.m. and got nowhere. I couldn't sleep and finally did around 3:00 a.m. only to be waken soon after by Josie. She woke me up to tell me she was cold. I responded by asking her if she had completed the task that I had asked of her. I had asked her to write out a list of things she expects from me. I'm obviously not providing her with much of anything if she feels the need to call other men and talk on end about who knows what. She became upset about this saying that I'm crazy and making a big thing out of nothing. My response is that she is either delusional, or too stupid to understand what she is doing. She said she has done nothing. I let her know that it's her actions that are causing me to act this way and she told me that she thinks I'm crazy, as do the kids. Well, the kids waited for her to leave for work before they told me that they never said such things, and they can't understand why she is doing what she is doing. Miranda thinks it best if we just separate and I think I might agree. Josie is damaged goods. Josie isn't a moron, but is too lazy to use her intellect in any degree. Josie revealed to me recently something about her past that I had always suspected, and that plays a big part in all of this as well. Josie is a horrible liar, can't keep stories straight and gets caught easily therefor she has no business making shit up in the first place. I'm not perfect. I never have been and I'll take responsibility where my shortcomings reside. But, I have never cheated on my wife, not even once. I have had the opportunity to but never did it because I put my family first before my own pleasure. Plus, I had faith in my wife that she would never do any such thing. Faith, it's for the weak. I've obviously wasted that part of my life foolishly.

3 comments:

Mike Smith said...

If there is anything, ANYTHING I could do to help you joe, i'm always here. You've helped me quite a bit when I was going through some of the stuff you are, except the marriage part. I know what it feels like to be called crazy, a liar, and some other stupid shit. I've delt with that since I was 8 or 9. I was never good enough for my dad, so I got yelled at for no apperant reason... It's sad when you're the messenger boy and are expected to get yelled at and screamed at because of something the other person had said. It's a very very hard time to go through with that because you can go insane and so depressed that you'll just loose it. Sorry for this part, I just needed to get it out because I haven't said it to anyone besides miranda yet. Remember, I'm always a phone call away or a few streets away if you need to talk, I might be young, but I have some experience with this sort of thing since I was told by my mom and my dad what was happening with them. I helped them a few times, but my mom just kept making it worse and worse so that my dad finally went off the deep end and did the dumbest thing that he now regrets. But yeah, I want you to get better Joe. Your friend,
Mike

gothchickmae said...

It's getting to me too dad. I cried at lunch after i got off the phone with you because i felt i didn't play my part and i let you down. I feel real bad, but i hate getting stuck in the middle of things i dont want to get involved with. I hate being in the position in where i have to choose. I just want you to know i could never hate you and i will always love you forever. And to top things off i dont talk behind your back like mom tryed to say that stuff that i supposedly said. Im always here for you dad...and im glad to talk to you because youre the only person in this house who listens to me and cares what i have to say. But whatever decision you make i am fine with it..i just want you to be happy again.

Love you so much,
Miranda

Joe said...

Well, things are better. We talked and your mom admitted that not only does she need help, she admitted what she has been doing is wrong, and swears she's been giving him nothing but advice. Time will tell, well give the help thing a shot. I'm not one to go running for divorce papers but at the same time I'm not going to take being shit on lightly....