WINDOWS MIND OS

In the future, the mind is run on a Windows® platform and many natural things have to be learned. I was re-learning many of ancient functions of the mind. The fucntions cost points as well and you gained them back after you mastered them. I... was about to master sin, which was only 5 points, but extremely hard to master and overcome. And hard to get the points back to boot. I was up for that challenge...

DREAM LAND

Had a very disturbing dream two nights ago that Brandon was trying to tell me he loved me. I was done with him at that point and would have nothing to do with him. I kept pushing him away and telling him to just go, that it was too late. It set a horrible mood for the rest of the day, really bad mood. I felt horrible and could do nothing about it. Anyway, going to start and experiment with lucid dreaming, going to record them as soon as they happen. Will type them out here. Hope I can get back there to tell him that I didn't mean it. Made me feel a bit like Abraham selling out Isaac in the bible. I'd never sacrifice my kid if the voices told me to! The bible is crazy. Anyway, been dreaming tons this past week. I should have been on the ball and recorded them all....

Going to try and meet THE FOOL from the tarot card in my dream this week. First thing I will try to do.

I'VE TOTALLY LOST IT....

So, nine a.m. this morning the alarm goes off so I can get up and get ready for work. I shot straight up and said, "Home owner...." out loud. All I know is I was having a dream about the play (on words) on "homo" and "moaner." So the HOMO part was a bit drawn out. Yes. I'm a bit disturbed by this... I have gay friends, so it's not like I go around calling gay people homo. What I recall is that I was dreaming about making a joke. Homo, and moaner, as one word or something. like that. Regardless, it's still just fucking weird as hell....